we are smiling as we approach the grocery store in the river town
as we've noticed the familiar transit van from our county
our county
which lies across the muddy river
in a completely different state
we seem to see our county transit van everywhere
transporting seniors
to their destinations
from a rural food desert
to a grocery store
maybe to the doctor’s office
providing rides in an area with no bus
or train
or Uber
I hear an unmistakable sound
wretch
heave
or as my grandson calls it, “un-swallowing”
a frail man on bended knee
head bent as if in prayer
nothing seems to come of his repeated efforts
a transit driver stands idle
her back to him on the opposite side of the van
a faraway look in her eye
my brain runs through well meaning questions
and responses
sir, do you need help?
thanks but, I can vomit on my own
may I get you anything?
perhaps just privacy...
bypassing the juice aisle
I buy a bottle of water
as an offering
but he is gone
so is the van