Thursday, April 16, 2015

Among the Embers

I have this story I'm able to put forth on the occasion when I'm asked how I met my husband. It begins like this: "He found me drunk in a gutter…" It's true, you know. But, I'll get to that later.

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A couple of times I've watched the musical "Meet Me in St. Louis" a movie set in the year leading up to the 1904 World's Fair, centering around the wealthy Smith family. They live in a mansion which has running water and indoor plumbing, but also along side the standard faucet is an old-fashioned hand pump for water supply in the kitchen, where the older sisters have to heat water to shampoo their hair. The house has electricity, but uses mostly gas for lighting. The  Smiths also have one of the early telephones in the dining room. I assume this arrangement in homes of the well-to-do is historically accurate. However, I've never researched it.

There is one part of the movie, when first viewed, quite surprised me. It's the evening October 31, when the two younger Smith sisters, aged 5 and 10-ish, costumed as "drunken ghosts," go out to join the area children for a bonfire and the pranking of neighbors. They carry bags of wheat flour, that their mother cautions them to use care not to throw in the victims' eyes, while their grandfather urges them to "wet" the flour, so it will stick better to the prey. Apparently they partake only in the "trick," not the 'treat" part of Halloween.

The neighborhood children, between the ages of five and thirteen, have somehow gotten a huge bonfire going into which they throw discarded wooden furniture, some of which is left out by adult in the area specifically for the purpose of having the children burn the trash. There is not a single adult around to supervise this blaze. Five-year-old Tootie begs for her own piece of debris to toss into the flames that tower over her head. She shortly earns that privilege, along with the coveted title, "The Most Horrible," by rapping on the door of the feared Mr. Braukoff, whom the children claim beats "his wife with a red hot poker... and has empty whiskey bottles in his cellar." When he answers the door she throws flour at him, shouting "I hate you!" The children call this act "killing" someone. These children had very good imaginations. It was't necessary to actually carry out a "dirty deed." They'd only needed to  imagine that it occurred for them to be satisfied. 

Later that same evening Tootie stuffs a dress and throws it on the tracks in front of a moving trolley. Her neighbor, John, sees her and drags her out of the way so she will not be injured or caught by the police. Somehow she sustains a cut to the inside of her lip, requiring stitches. When asked about her injury the imaginative Tootie claims dramatically that John, "...tried to kill me."

These kids were unsupervised imps. And they were the ones who came from "good" families and lived in the "nicest" of neighborhoods. I can't imagine what the kids from the bad side of town were doing. Was this type of activity among young children historically accurate? Of that I am certain.

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It's 1957 or '58 and I am, like Tootie, five years old, though I live in Chicago, not St. Louis. A couple of blocks from our modest middle-class home, over on the east side of Broadway and just south of Argyle, there is a bowling alley. Last night it burned to the ground. We could hear the fire engines wailing in the dark. My older sister and I quickly eat breakfast and rush over to see the ruins. There we join a group of neighborhood kids who comb through the ashes. There are no wooden horses or caution tape to cordons off this dangerous area of charred beams and a partially missing roof, nothing in the way of signs to warn us to stay out. There are no adults to supervise our exploit. We are careful where we walk, as some embers are still hot to the touch and emitting curls of smoke. Like scavenger raccoons we, opportunistic children, scour through the remains. We are here and, as such, we earn the right to claim any number of the remaining bowling balls and pins as our arms can carry.  We open machines designed to vend candy, gum, soda and cigarettes, machines from which the locks have melted from the searing heat, machines from which we rightfully claim the contents including loose change. There is a machine that is still locked and younger kids at the urging of bigger kids, shove their arms up inside. "Come on! Look how thin your arms are. You can reach up in there." Never mind the razor thin sheet metal slots inside those machines. We walk home with our treasures, eating now cooled but misshapen blobs that were once rectangular chocolate bars. We set up our claimed pins behind our home and laugh at the fact that we now have a "real" bowling alley.

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We enjoyed the sheer pleasure of freedom, afforded to urban kids in the 1960s, '50s and earlier. Once your filial and scholastic chores and duties were complete you were allowed to roam as you wished, take normal childlike risks, provided you showed up for evening dinner.

"Where are you going?" "To the beach" or "To the park" or, "Out with my friends" was an appropriate answer; to which a parent would reply, "Be home for dinner!"

Sometimes there were planned parish, library or park district activities, but more often it was left to our imaginations to find an activity, like empty lot pickup games, or jumping from one garage roof to another, or diving/jumping "off the rocks" and into chilly Lake Michigan, an activity which though strongly discouraged by city officials, was a common pastime of children and adults.

Visits to my cousins in rural Wisconsin proved that they were also imaginatively blessed. When they were not doing farm chores, picking wild berries or fishing, they were manufacturing their own wooden rubber band guns, a bit less harmful than a slingshot, which were used on bulls-eye targets, the occasional bird or squirrel, or turned on each other in an all-out war. They were crude, handmade and to be hit by the rubber band "bullet" stung like heck. The older kids would shimmy up a huge tree to hang a heavy rope from a strong limb over the Wolf River, which we youngsters would then run, grab hold of the rope as best we could and swing across, in hopes we wouldn't lose our grip and fall into the (now rated a class 2 or 3 rapids) shallow but swift-flowing river.

How did we survive? I wonder.

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I read my blog to Faithful Husband and he comments, "You know, now that I think about it, my parents, nor any of my friends' parents ever asked us where we got those bowling balls and pins." Yes, Faithful Husband was there among the embers that very day as my sister and I scoured through the remains. We discovered this fact through an exchange of childhood experiences, sometime after we'd met (me, "drunk and in the gutter") as young adults. We'd grown up no more than a half mile from each other. 

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Last month we celebrated our 43rd wedding anniversary. Oh, and I was supposed to tell you about how we met, now wasn't I? You know, how he found me "drunk in the gutter." Sorry, but I've already exceeded my self-imposed 1,000 word limit, so some other time.


Thursday, April 9, 2015

My Dream Diary

January 27, 2011

A friend, Nelda, asks me to make Sangria at a party she’s hosting, but she’s missing a key ingredient (I’m almost sure my subconscious did not mean this as a metaphor for Nelda, but Reliable Husband might tell you otherwise.) Off I go, with Reliable Husband in tow, to buy the ingredient, which I determine to be the lemon-lime beverage, 7-Up. As we make our way through a jammed-together maze of assorted urban buildings, some of which we must scale to pass, I glance up and notice a couple of fighter jets scrambling  in the sky. "Is there an air show scheduled?" I ask Reliable Husband. He makes a cursory glance skyward but, whatever he sees does not deter him from the task at hand. Keeping us on track, he points to a shop off in the distance, one that he is certain will carry 7-Up. After much walking, climbing and maneuvering through this jungle-like urban setting we reach the store. The store is something I would envision finding in a communist-controlled state, long lines of customers waiting to purchase relatively few items. While they don't have 7-Up, they do have Cherry 7-Up. For some reason I feel it necessary that I act as if I am disappointed that it is the Cherry version of the 7-Up that I must purchase, when all along I am secretly ecstatic, being convinced that the cherry flavor and coloring will greatly improve the sangria I'm to prepare for Nelda. After the lengthy checkout process we step back outside to see that there is now an enigmatic “Star Wars” now going on in the sky. Reliable Husband suggests we look for shelter, but I counter that Nelda is waiting. So, we make our way back to Nelda's. The terrain has gotten even more unnavigable and more swollen with crowds of people, a few of whom are now weeping. As we walk, we stare blankly ahead, knowing that we all hear the same frightening metal-in-distress sounds. "Quick, follow me," someone beside us urges. We look over to see our younger son, Matt. We follow him as he confidently leads, bypassing the areas we formerly had to climb over. He seems aware of shortcuts, via which he quickly and safely returns us to my friend, Nelda's, home on the lakefront of Chicago's Rogers Park. We walk through the gate and into the yard of Nelda's condo building, to a party that has morphed to a grand Gatsby-like scale, (if you give a quarter turn to that "N" Nelda becomes Zelda) that now includes a swimming pool full of adults, mostly young men I notice. Matt, as if having been on some covert mission, which is now accomplished, has disappeared. Clutching my Cherry 7-Up, exhausted and exasperated at the venture we've experienced and anxious to share the telling of it with someone, I find Nelda busily overseeing the preparation of party food in the kitchen. She glances up at me and asks, in a voice in which I can swear I detect a slight tone of annoyance, “So, is that Sangria almost ready, or what?”...

February 11, 2012
It’s the year 2016 and I am Chief of Staff to President Obama. The U.S. has suspended the term limits for the office of the president, mostly because neither the GOP nor the Democrats can come up with suitable candidates. So Obama is to run for office again, unchallenged this time. And to top it off, it’s also the celebration of the engagement of Malia. As in dreams, it doesn’t add up, as Malia’s now 22, I am a 30+ year old career woman with no children, however I am married to Reliable Husband. But, it's a dream and so I dismiss any illogicality. Anyway, the Obamas love my work ethic and they adore Reliable Husband and the two of us revel in the moment, as we work, plan, hobnob and celebrate with the elite...

August 26, 2012
It is some future date, but I am my current age. I’m gliding solo through space in some sort of intergalactic vehicle, with only a unbelievably thin piece of futuristic temperature/shatter/scratch-proof (let's just call it cosmos-proof) glass protecting the upper portion of the craft and its contents. The view is awesome, better than any of the stuff I've seen on those Neil deGrasse Tyson-hosted PBS shows. The ride in my vehicle is ultra-soft, not the rough ride I'd somehow expected. It's like gliding in a hovercraft with marshmallow-like shock absorption, over the calmest of seas and with the loftiest of breezes to propel me. Asteroids? Meteors? Space Trash? Yes, I see it but, it's all zooming off in the distance and not one bit of it poses a threat to me. I have a sense of joy and serenity as I peacefully glide along to my destination, enjoying the gorgeous vista of cosmos at my command. Suddenly, I notice that my craft is headed straight for a seemingly impenetrable wall of various undulating strings. "Avert!", screams my panicked brain, but when I look at the controls before me, I realize I haven't the slightest clue about how to operate this vehicle...

April 8, 2015

In this dream I am about 40-ish in years, an unmarried woman -without a partner.

You must first rear a half child, and
then you may rear a whole child.

I don't even know how I know this dictum, only that I know it to be true. Oh, and I so want a child of my own to raise. Well, actually what I'm wishing for is a whole child and thus, if the only way to obtain one is to first successfully prove that I can responsibly rear a half child, well, then gosh darn it, I'll do it!

And I do a pretty bang-up job of beginning the upbringing my half child (BTW, it's the top half, from the waist up.) I quickly find myself eligible to receive another child, a whole child. As they grow, both of my children seem genderless, or rather they seem to frequently change from male to female and back. And they have a chameleon-like ability to change their racial background, from curly red-headed Irish-looking kids to Asiatic kids with stick-straight black locks, to blondes with blue and green eyes, to kids with African features and such. And gosh, they are all cute, and each super-smart and funny! 

In retrospect, I find the half-child to be half the work, the child weighs less and is easier to transport, the child also eats less and is therefore cheaper to clothe and feed, yet the child seems to bring every bit as much joy to my life as the whole child. I have the sense that I am doing a pretty good job rearing my one and one half children all by myself, but as I analyze the situation I come to understand that it's because they are both still so young, being only of preschool age. I start to picture my life with them as teenagers and I find myself so terrified that I must force myself to wake up...


Perhaps I should stop watching PBS specials and Werner Herzog films and start watching Dancing with the Stars.